LONDON!

i am in london and right now dibah is eating breakfast with me. i feel sooo at home. being around my closest closest friends, the best ones i have they make me feel so happy.

they have the raya thing going on apparently. i decided to go but then because last night was a bit... crazy i decided not to today. i wanted to just walk around and see London... do the whole tourist thing. HAHAHA.

well, to be honest, i like it here only cause my friends are here but being here also reminds me of the reasons why i want to study in france in the first place... paris is still my number one city... besancon is home and well, london is my haven as it has my angels in it. ;)

salsa. movies. weekend.

i honestly feel i had a great weekend and well i havent had one in a while so it was such a breathe of fresh air. i had a salsa lesson thursday night the other day, and that was really awesome. i really do want to do it again so i am taking up lessons. i really want to do street jazz too! but yeah, i think i will take up that one in the campus.

weekend came and it was... really nice. i cant explain it. but yeah. and i watched the latest movie by woody allen with some friends, vicky christina barcelona and it was such a weird and disturbing movie but really good anyway. penelope cruz and scarlette johansson (i am not sure about the spelling) but you guys must watch it. it provokes a different kind of reaction, like u really do think after the movie. i love the part where Judy and Vicky were talking about love in a cafe and it struck me how similar it all is to my situation. not my situation now i suppose but what i had before and to know that it actually is normal was really awesome.

conclusion? it was the best i ever had. the weekend. the people i spent time with. i really really liked it. and i cant wait till my brother comes too!

french thing.

i havent been updating lately... well, just because. been busy with CLA, i have more and more work coming in and here i thought that i wont be doing much. you know how it is in my class? people come and go. they stay for a month or maybe two and then they move on. this is because right now, i am still in an intensive language course. so like, while m staying here for the next few months as i needed the right level of french to go start uni, they study french just for the heck of it and to some, just to improve their level of french. hence... yeah. anyway, this month's batch in my class... are just PFFT. there are some cool people out of the SIX people i have in my class... but that is it. the rest are just... !#&*&$#@ but i met some new people recently and well, theyre really cool. they speak english and though i know that this isnt really a good idea as i am here to learn french... BAAAAAAAAA (as the french put it...HAHA)

oh cali wah... cause i was having lunch with the group of friends and like, one of them was saying how weird the FRENCH are...(not the language, i mean the people). she said, "they have all these weird sounds they put in the language! like BAAAOUEEE~ EEEUUHHHH~ MEMEMAAAAISSS~" HAHAHAHAHAH which is so true! whenever a french loses his or her trail of word, instead of like a silence...they fill it in with BAAAAAAA until they find the thing that they want to say. sometimes i think it isnt that they lose their trail, i think they also do it purposely. maybe it is like a french thing or something. hmmmm...

been skyping a lot. i think my internet traffic is now... nearly reaching the limit. PFFFTTT! i cant wait for the real wifi to come. having an internet usb key is awesome but if it isnt unlimited, it is just so not fun. and SKYPE is like... a phenomenon man. u can talk with someone abroad for like hours and hours and it is just like talking on the phone, if not better, as you can see the other person on a webcam. eee i like. internet is awesome! mind you, it isnt awesome in brunei at all. their so called broadband which is usually down... so annoying to go on the net in brunei.

=)

kamuuuu. i am over the moon. i just made my first curry. HAHAHAHA!

Raya at Besancon

pictures are courtesy of masitah...

i thought i looked great. :P dont you think so? HAHAHAHAHAHA. vain.

well, it was okay. nothing particularly spectacular though i must say, the msians were very accommodating.

bah. i am out. hope you like the pictures... ;)

dont worry, be happy~

i am listening to bob marley now. i had a hardcore session just now, listening to my all-time favourites...avenged sevenfold. i was also listening to paramore and flyleaf and i must say, i prefer flyleaf because i think paramore's a bit too punk and mainstream for my liking...

"dont worry~ be happy~"

this weekend is a non-happening one i must say. musique des rues is going on but i havent been going to any, except this one where they have this weird...dance. why am i not going out? hmmm. well, i dont know. i guess it is a bad idea having your own place. now, i just always want to go home, home to the safe and warm confy place i now call...home. i am finally settled in! it's an awesome feeling, really...

just now, i went to the malaysian's raya gathering. no use telling you lot where it is as duh, you wont know where it is. their place is quite far from centreville (town) but a really nice place nonetheless. the view going there is amazing. i love it. you can see mountains...and mountains...some pointy. some like a plateau... it's just awesome! =)

how was the raya? well, on the whole, it's great. food...people... hmmm...

"youre just a brand-new secondhand~"

i appreciate little things like containers now. :P

and....

and you wish you could turn back time. because there is this something that you would love to just... change. erase. this something that you would rather now do the other way.

and you just think...wow.

and there are some people you now wish you can erase from your life too. those people who just cant see themselves. those people who promise to be loyal to you, who promise to always be there. those people who youd kill youself for only to be betrayed and left with nothing.

and i wish i could do that. erase and not care, just like how some people do it. but i couldnt. i still have that ache in me. and i cant erase it.

and when you miss someone so much that it hurts, you just want to run away from it. the level of intensity scares you.

and... you wish you just turn back time. back to when everything actually made sense, even in the middle of the chaos, everything.

and right now. you know that whatever you say, at the end of the day... you're still alone. and that you will always be this way.

long due.

i miss these people. this was, i believe, the last lunch i had with them before i had to leave.

with zai and yazmyn...

deebus...

qaira and deebs...

hey everyone. just thought that i should make a quick post. since everyone is on a hype about raya, well, no no, no worries, i wont go on a rant about how i wish i could go raya cause um, m not really into that... ANYWAY, happy raya to all. and i would like to opologise for any wrongdoings, any harsh words said... it was for your own good anyway... HAHA. okay joke.

i miss him. miss na miss ko sya. parang nababaliw na ako. puta!