my life now. zennnnn~

and i have always been such a dork it seems. :)

so i havent been updating for a while now. i suppose you guys could tell why. or not. since really, i have been not in touch with most people... its a bit scary how fast we are all growing up and away from each other.

i have been...

- busy. i finally started my semester course and i have decided on taking 3 optional subjects of which one of them would be contemporary history of france. mind you...this is in french.

- calmer. life is too beautiful to be taken for granted. il faut sourire quoi!

- out and about. i have been doing so many things i didnt think i ever do or ever do again. it was like "whooaaa...". my singing experience. um, my nights out which have now restarted following my hiatus the past few...months. bowling. i like this, although i am always losing. it's the company that matters anyway. walks around town when it is sunny. i am just basically trying my best to fill in time. time which is too precious to be wasted.







i know what i want to do in life. and i must always remember this and nothing else. because at the end of the day, i am left with what i have in hand. and this hand must be holding something when that time comes.

friends. s, k, p.

oh, and my brother is coming! yay!!!

crystal-clear.

and the murky waters are cleared now.

vision.

to be more aware and concious of...life.

breathe. and really breathe...

eyes wide open.

realizations...

but NO regrets.

through with dark colours. i want sunny and white clouds...

and from all these, i learnt so many things.

...

you're not independent by nature... it is by choice.

Great Pics by Izat

this was when we were in chateaufarine, Mc Donalds. HAHA. my very good friend Izat. or more affectionately known as my Mama. =p always there for each other and he is on my illimited call list. that has to be something!

=)

lets close the door again.

i have a lot in my mind these days. things to digest and these are things which require a lot of thinking. i feel like i am now in a shell, enclosed and bidding my time as to when exactly it is time for me to make my next move. the start of this year was a great challenge and i surprised myself for reacting quite well to it. it was sad but i dealt with it well but maybe i was fooling myself there a little bit. the force of it probably hadnt hit me full force so i suppose now that it has, i am thrown off course.

i seem to still have the same problems. i dont know since when but i do notice that recently i have taken an initiative to be more open to people and to let people in my life a bit more easier. and also to be more open about my life and what i am doing. it has been good, great even as now i really do feel like i have built strong relationships around me. but... there are also bad things and these bad things came from people i never expected. i suppose these people are jealous. or wary. call it whatever you want but i have no time for judgmental people. people who think they know everything, people who think that they have the right to say something, to judge... what the fuck? did i ever bother your life? did i ever say bad things about you? for all i know, i think all i ever said to you was to thank you for the great contribution you have made to my life. but whatever. you cant please everyone.

i have started school and school has been great. i really wanted to start the year right. but i cant seem to really do that. its this rut and i hate being in this rut... but i am trying my hardest to fight it. i still meet people when usually i would just hide. i go and do things i am supposed to... yet at the same time i feel bad cause i know i wont be such a good...company.

what are my plans for the future? i cancelled london. i have my reasons... but i am most probably going there february... but we will see.

what? 2009?

hello everyone. i havent updated so...you guessed it right. i have been so busy. i am in paris now, spending my last few christmas holidays with good friends and the busy life of paris... not that i have been very active in that sense.

so...this is what i did...

- went to switzerland with two very good friends... stergios and kat. went to bern, lausanne and neuchatel. it was great, saw some wonderful monuments...bern was exceptionally amaaaazing. loved it.

- went to dijon. tried their famous dishes...was really nice there though i would prefer besancon. :) i like their shops though. good place to shop definitely.

- played bowling and went karting with a group of friends. karting was awesome. i miss driving sooo much so it was really good...

overall... my holidays were well-spent with people i love being with.

future plans? i am going to london on the 19th till 25th. :) i cant wait for that either. i want to meet allllll my good friends there but we'll see what i can manage. definitely want to go to kent though, meet my cousin and see my good friends there too. so we'll see...

oh yeaaah, what did i do for NY eve??? *smiles* do i really want to talk about that? like most other people? nope...

what 2009? tsk tsk. it's the same all over aaagaaain... except that this time we have number 9 on 2000 rather than 8.